Oh hello. I know, I havent written in a while.  I don’t have a decent excuse either.  I want to say I have been busy…I have, just not really.  I have been making myself busy by watching tonnes of new tv, going out as many times as I can, working my socks off on my placement, being an awesome housemate.  See busy but not really :((  But still… I don’t know what to do.  With myself.

I miss all my friends, (+ slightly my family) so much.  Even the people I shouldn’t miss.  It’s not that my housesmates are horrible, because they aren’t.  They are 6 of the nicest and craziest people, and I enjoy living with them but I’m missing something.  When I’m feeling down I think about my previous year (or the first 7 months of this year)  and i just wish i had something like that now.  I work over 35 hours a week, and all i want to do when I get home is is snuggle with someone, have a rant without feeling like I am boring someone, have a someone come and visit me and have a fucking good weekend.  I want to stop feeling so ill, that I can’ t eat sometimes  or that i have like a few mouthfuls of pasta or something and then oh, im full  i don’t really know why im complaining of the lack of eatage.  Its just odd for me.

So what have a been up to?  working my wee socks off, seriously was on my last legs before christmas and needed a break.  Then i came back to work earlier this week, and was like….what is this work? what am i even doing here at this stupid time? It was a shock to the system.  Let me chat about some of my nights out…

• Went out with one of my college friends, and her friends from her classes.  Those friends were nice, but then another friend she lives with also met us and she was a tad weird and slutty.  She basically was competeing for my friends attention against me and in the end i just could not be assed. Then later, she left and i thought she had just popped to the toilet, in fact she had gone to meet friends who had previously said they werent going out.  And my friend was trying to find her everywhere.
• Me and mum had a massive argument ater christmas dinner, partly fueled by my brother.  My made be make a smaller tea, but then wouldnt tell me all the details.  Then also people were saying they werent hungry.  One of the things washe made me go outside to get cheesecake, then when I came in…we didnt need it and apparently if i had been at home the day before i would have seen that she had been baking things.  Then my brother was just bing whiney and making things worse.
• soooo New Year: We went to a friends 21st birthday at her house.  my housemate joe, left the party early and was going to meet me later, when i left so i wasnt walking home alone.  He told me to go to this street, but he spelt it wrong so i nearly went somewhere else. Then he told me to go find another housemate of mine in this random house in a street. It was the loudest one in the street, there was a room dedicated to weed smokers and druggies, another with a full on rave and graffiti up the walls. She wasnt in there and then joe arrived back and he tried to get me to dance even though i wanted to go home (i had also just walked 30 mins round reading) rang the other housemate, she was 2 doors down (in a quieter house), went to see her, was there 2 hours, then i ended up going back the way i came nearly and going to her boyfriends house…and i ended up sleeping in her boyfriends bed for 2 hours and then got back to my own bed at 9 in the morning and sleeping well into the afternoon.
• Last night i went out with a few housmates and friends, (as the rest of our house has gone on tour…snow)  everything was going fine….  Somehow, we ended up meeting a friend in a gay bar and yes, someone made eye-contact……then we moved across town to pavlovs dog and then back over to yates. Me and my housemate have a kind of a fued going on.  Whenever we go out, or whenever he drinks he ends up gettinng really loud, treating me like shit, tries to kiss me or grope my boobs.  So last night, he kept commenting how short i was, dancing like a twat, disappearing and not coming back for ages, and just being a twat.  By the end of last year, I just didnt want to go out if joe was involved, although he would go out of his way to go out…even if he has no money.  Im sick of him, being a dick to me and being to clingy to me….the amount of people wo have asked if we are together…but we are not.  He is not my type, he just is not like the guy i want.
• went shopping today…wasnt going to buy that much.  Just needed to post a present, and send a dress back.  Popped into Acessorise to spend a gift card i got for christmas.  Picked out an awesome cupcake and a binocular,camera necklaces and a bracelet with charms which also had three bright coloured ribbons going through it.  Paid, went into Boots, bought some other things, got a bus back to my house.  started discussing what i had bought…looked at my bags, and my tiny Acsessorise was gone.  I had left it somewhere, totally gutted, and then i tell one of my housemates and he fucking laughs at me.

So yeah, my christmas started alright and then things have prtty much gone down hill from there.  Some of my housemates are starting to really piss me off.  They don’t have any money so they will basically scavenge off everyone else, any free food going and they are in there straight away.  I always have lemonade and coke, always asking me for some, and do i get anything back?  I lot of shit drama and then the rest of a flat bottle of lemonade because they cant put a top back on properly. They burn shit to my pans, and then dont clean them properly.  I have managed to keep them pans clean for over a year, and now after 3 months..gross.  No-one buys toilet paper, or milk other than m and another girl.

hmm, just need something good to happen in my life, a nice weekend, free of drama and crap.

Tags: life, people, unhappy