Im home from university, for two weeks yay…not :((  its boring at home.

So anyway, one of the first things my parents said to me when i got back was that i should lose some weight and the next thing was that i had bad skin (not that bad seriously, its not noticeable unless, you look at my neck close up).  So, anyway both of these i know about, because well you know yourself dont you? Someone doesn’t need to point these imperfections out to you, do they?  Imperfections to them, could be the last straw for you.  They could mean, life or death, love or heartbreak, happiness and the other one.

I didn’t need my parents to point these out to me, this is me and i do know my body, nearly every centimetre of it.  The fact the pointed these out, has now made it so that my brother is turned into a slight bully.  My face isnt that spotty that astronauts may mistake it as the moon, and neither am i obese.  I’ve just been at university, living off noodles and pizza, i should learn to cook more, i know.

…and for the next two weeks, im going to sort this out…or make a start, not because of a parents, but because i want to, and did before they said anything.

I decided definatly a few months ago, if not a few years ago.  That I am, who I am, and no-one can change this.  I think this is the same for everyone, while people might come to me for advice…for some reason… (whether what i give is what they want, i do try to answer honestly…well i will from now on) Im not going to force them to do this, that isn’t me.  We shouldn’t change ourselves for others around us, they should learn to love us the way we are.  Just because someone wanted to hang out/chat with someone that you hate, you shouldn’t hate on them for this.  You can’t keep your best/boy/girl friend locked up, you would end up just wanting to kill them (well i would) this isn’t fair on them, you, those around you and their friends. So for fucks sake, live you lifes people. If people want to change you, ditch them, because they are obviously not worth keeping.  It may be hard, at first, but your real friends around will keep you….

miss you xxx

(you should know who i mean)

Tags: annoyed, don't change, family, life, people, slap 'em